I’m watching this car wreck I’m just watching this car wreck unfold Seeing it coming Knowing the path to avoid it happening But also this time knowing It’s futile To try and get you to listen To try and get you to shift gears Take A different direction So I watch it I just watch [...]
You dismiss All that I have gone through To overcome everything I have faced And get to where I am In effect you dismiss Your ability to do the equivalent In your own life with your own circumstances In effect you separate me out As different “special” And after a lifetime Of paying careful attention [...]
You invite me To wallow with you To dive into Your cesspool You offer To suffer on my behalf Equating martyrdom With love ©2018 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No portion of this article may be copied without author’s permission.
I don’t want to pitch you anymore I don’t give a fuck about What you think about what I think I don’t want to wait for something Outside myself, which you deem important, To happen To validate the relevance and worth Of my observations and insights I just want to see to contemplate to share [...]
Shit just drags on Your story Becomes my story Your chaos Becomes my chaos By default ©2017 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No portion of this article may be copied without author’s permission.
You said she was big And looked like a man That there was something Wrong with her And that when she danced alone With her tiara People felt sorry for her But I feel sorry For people whose lives Are so empty That they fill them With speculation And pity You said She’s mentally retarded [...]
I foresee the consequences You don’t I end up holding the burden You won’t I drag you along in flight like a burlap sack Full of bricks The weight tears at my wings But I know if I let go of the excess You will crash and burn ©2017 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. [...]
You tried To destroy my soul I tried To uplift you While healing myself From the trauma And destruction You inflicted on me You complained All the while Adding fury To your violent rage And attempt to obliterate Everything ©2017 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No portion of this article may be copied without [...]
You handed me down An impossible list of Tasks and responsibilities And I ticked them off one by one like a dutiful daughter Accomplishing most of them completely And some of them partially Despite their impossibility And irrationality But now I’m all Tied in a knot And unsure Where to put my focus time effort [...]
Constant crisis aversion Monitoring and managing others Incompetent unwilling unable I can wait I can wait I can wait Daughter Friend Neighbor It doesn’t matter Always the mother She can wait she can wait she can wait If I am not for myself Who is for me But if I am not for you You [...]