I am reading a book I found in a used book store, Art & Fear. I have found in there some passages that have been life-altering. Sometimes someone says something you already know, but they present it in such an articulate and coherent way that it all comes together with power and focus that didn’t [...]
Two weeks ago, my mom fell and ended up incapacitated. I have since flown down to California to bring her back to Washington to live with me in my house. She needs 24/7 supervision. I feel honored and privileged to support her healing. I also am happy she is here, for many reasons. Side by [...]
You want what I have Demanding it by your actions and inactions Calling for my love to take shape In the form of rescue From yourself As you condemn me hate me spit on me Do everything in your power Consciously or unconsciously To undermine my own life wellness choices And ultimately peace You effectively [...]
Mother You are like the colonialist Mining the land for all it has Sucking out the bounty creation wisdom magic Benefitting surviving living expanding Denigrating devaluing spitting raging ©2018 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No portion of this article may be copied without author’s permission.
I was drowning in the sea Of your combined mental illness Until I realized I am a mermaid And then I swam in the glory of G-d’s ocean And surfaced Hollering in joy With fresh air gracing my lungs And sunshine sparkling on my eyes and smile ©2018 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No [...]
I’m watching this car wreck I’m just watching this car wreck unfold Seeing it coming Knowing the path to avoid it happening But also this time knowing It’s futile To try and get you to listen To try and get you to shift gears Take A different direction So I watch it I just watch [...]
You dismiss All that I have gone through To overcome everything I have faced And get to where I am In effect you dismiss Your ability to do the equivalent In your own life with your own circumstances In effect you separate me out As different “special” And after a lifetime Of paying careful attention [...]
You invite me To wallow with you To dive into Your cesspool You offer To suffer on my behalf Equating martyrdom With love ©2018 by Loolwa Khazzoom. All rights reserved. No portion of this article may be copied without author’s permission.
Tonight I went to a mermaid gathering – women joining together for spontaneous song and dipping (or swimming, in my case), in the cold Pacific Northwest waters. The gathering started off beautiful, soulful, nourishing, and healing for me. We shared how we were feeling and sang our names with that feeling – or in my [...]
I don’t want to pitch you anymore I don’t give a fuck about What you think about what I think I don’t want to wait for something Outside myself, which you deem important, To happen To validate the relevance and worth Of my observations and insights I just want to see to contemplate to share [...]