Athonai sifathai tiftah
Ufee yagid emoonathai
You abused me
Without mercy
Seized every opportunity
To exert dominance and control
I risked everything
Dared
To save my soul
Put myself
Above everything
You put before me
And taught me
To bow down to
And self sacrifice
In worship
I reconfigured my brain
Devoted myself to
Healing and transformation
Harnessed my imagination
Living as-if
Until it became a reality
You meanwhile
Continued to be angry
That you failed
To destroy me
Break my spirit
Turn me into
Your slave
And even as my life
Was on the line
You played mind power and money games
While pointing accusing fingers at me
And crying out victim
And yet
Throughout it all
I held the vision of something
Beautiful Pure and Whole
Distilling the ssence of
The religion and values
That you preached but failed to practice
As I protected you
From yourself
From the world
Out of compassion
Because when I tell my story
I tell your story
Which is largely ugly
And shaming
But I gave you
Every opportunity
To change your narrative
Yet you kept making the same choices
To denigrate and attempt to annihilate me
Until after four decades
I had to accept
That maybe evil
Is not your foolish misguided uninformed choice
But an essential part
Of who you are
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