Expanding
is the opposite of
Contracting

I want to breathe into
and through
The contrated places
Releasing the dark sticky tar

But I fear
That my breath
Will get contaminated
By your poison
And travel through
Intermingling
So that I become
An unwilling participant
In your perversion

In the interest
Of Purity Truth Innocence and Beauty
I contract
Shut off
Close the bridges and Gateways
Say NO with each cell each pore
A statement
That I have nothing to do
With your decay
And yet in the process of
Shutting you out
I also
Shut myself down

And so I return
To the Breath
The River of Life
Exploring Expanding
Trusting Knowing
That this Purity
Flowing through me
Is more powerful
Than your Darkness

Breathing in
Breathing through
Breathing out
Disintegrating the tar
So that
Particle by particle
It leaves me
And I am free
With the Light pouring through
Like when I was
A newborn Baby

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Help Me
Guide Me
Heal Me
Shine Your Sunlight through Me

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Cancer is my engine
I channel the power
Of this agitation
in my body
Recycling it
For transformation

I sing from and through
The blockage
Disintegrating dissolving
Its current manifestation
Repurposing it
For my healing

That which could kill me
Saves me
Through my courage devotion and focus
Unencumbered by the noise outside
The Sirens
Beckoning me to surgery
Shouting words of “can’t” repeatedly
Well-intentioned yet misguided notions
Of care and support

I challenge your thinking your system
Your fear embedded in
The slice and dice approach
You offer
There is something higher greater
Which I tap into
With my voice
Which would be endangered
Through your approach

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